Thursday, December 30, 2010

Resolutions...

O.K. I know, lots of people do it, rarely are they kept. So why do we fall in line with old customs and even give it thought at the beginning of a new year. Could it be because we hope for a new beginning and a better year as the new year dawns?? I suspect it lies somewhere in there, not sure exactly where.

So what am I going to do this year about resolutions. Normally I do nothing. I would love to be a better person, shure enuff! There are many facets of my life that I would like to improve. Admittedly, I have few talents, but for those I do have, I would love to improve. There are tasks I have started that are still not finished -- those I would like to finish. I have a little home at the coast that is on the market to sell. I would love to close this part of my life and put it safely away.
There are even a few "hobbies" I have had that I would like to resurrect such as my interest in needlework of all varieties. So... how can I do all of these things?? Oh, yes I do not have to. I can do just some of them and feel fulfilled, huh?? Do you really think so??
After reading an article in one of favorite news logs I have come to the conclusion that I could concur on the following as resolutions I might be able to keep. What do you think?
  • Walk more
  • Ignore the mirror
  • Eat better
  • Be more charitable
  • Pray often
HAPPY NEW YEAR, ALL!

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

My Heathens

And so..... most people my age (which is ancient beyond compare) have nice little neat homes that seem to stay that way except for the weekly dusting that one can do with one of those little feather dusters. And then there is mine!!! When you clean mine, even if it is everyday, it has to be spring cleaned! No kidding. I became a mother late in life, you see. My children are two heathen canines. I might mention one is a six month old female schnauzer puppy who thinks she is a mountain lion.

Yesterday I got up early, fed the little monsters, threw them in the car into their doggie car seats and up the road we rolled to Wake Forest "Paws at Play" to their groomer. Just trying to make them look a little civil for Christmas. She did her always nice job of getting the little heathens all cleaned up, smelling good, and looking spiffy with their little Christmas scarves on. I brought them down the highway looking so very cute, gave them a little snack, and they sacked out for the rest of the day. Just beat, those two were.

Well, is today ever a new day, lawsy me!! No one would believe these two ever met a groomer. They have lost their Christmas scarves and romped, played, and chewed on each other all day. Now they smell like doggy spit and who knows what else. They have romped in every room in the house I do believe and they still are not finished. Then they run out in the yard and bark like there is no tomorrow at whatever they perceive needs to be barked at. (Translated that means if you move --- you get barked at.) My house has leaves, doggie chews, toys, something or the other's remains and I am not sure what else all over it. I may need to call the fire department to help me clean it up before I can go out of town to spend Christmas with my family. Gotta go now and make like Molly Maid.

Monday, December 20, 2010

Greetings and Thank Yous

So..listening to the local news tonight...story on Christmas cards lamenting the fact that fewer people are sending the annual card to family and friends. Blame was placed on Facebook and other social sites that folks might be using. Users felt that all photos they had made during the year had been placed on these sites in addition to family happenings and activities. Family and friends already know all of the news. So...that is easy to understand in times when budgets are stressed and equally time seems to come at a premium. Those interviewed felt that ALL of their contacts use social sites.

Earlier in the evening I had received a phone call from a former college room mate. She told me that she was calling her friends and family this year because her writing is less legible and it is easier to call. It was wonderful to talk to her and catch up.

All of this gave me cause to think about the fact that I am sending cards to close family and friends this year but...I did use the computer to make mailing labels and return labels. I will admit that it is easier when I use technology to assist me. There was a time when I am certain Emily Post would have taken me to task for this.

All of this brought to mind another issue to which I have given ample thought of late. I receive many wedding invitations and announcements. Family, extended family, and often friends are strewn all over this great country of ours. Quite often included in the announcement / invitation is mention of the wedding registry and where it can be found. Therefore, I often do the easiest (close your ears Amy Vanderbilt) thing and order a gift from BB&B, TG, or where ever the listing and have it mailed to the address supplied by the honorees. But... in more recent years I receive fewer and fewer acknowledgements of having receiving the gift leaving me to wonder whether it was ever received. Now I do not expect to be praised because I sent the folks a gift but it would be nice to know whether they got it!! It would seem folks could at least send a note saying something like.....We got the meatloaf pan you sent us from our wedding registry. We know we had it listed but we would rather have had the 4K 60" Sony TV that we had listed.
What do you think?????

Friday, December 17, 2010

Sassy Memories

Each day that I visit this blog I sit and look at the picture at the top --- my beloved Sassy schnauzer. As I do I sit and think, "How could I have consented to have her put to sleep?"
"How could I have done this awful thing?" In my mind I revisit the moment in that room when the doctor administered the medicine that stopped her heart. Instantly the thought that I vocalized was, "What have I done? Oh My Lord, I cant' believe that I have done this." My stomach sunk and my heart ached. Even as I write this tears flow.
The curly legs that I look at were always whiter than any other of my dogs, her back and hind quarters that I massaged and rubbed so often. The many days that we spent with me in a certain chair and with my legs crossed just so as she sat on my lap and looked toward the sidelights of the front door and I rubbed her shiny curly fur. We both enjoyed those moments. I did it as long as she was healthy. When the cancer struck it ruined her left front leg and paw and the pain was always there. The paw was no longer of much use to her. Weeks before she went away she had chewed it and made it sore. I thought it was because it had no feeling. The vet told me it was because it hurt so badly. We treated and wrapped it and it got better.
I will always wonder if I should have waited longer to take her out of her misery. I had to depend on the vet for that information. She kept telling me, "you will know." I wonder if I ever really knew or I just knew I was supposed to as she struggled to walk each day and take care of "her business." She stayed where I put her down for the most part. If I nestled her in a spot in a soft comforter she stayed there until I picked her up and took her outside again. I brought her food and her water to her. If she was thirsty she never attempted to get to the water bowls I have for the girls. I gave her the pain medicine regularly. I tried with all my heart to do what was right for her. I wonder if she knew. I told her over and over how much I loved her. I wonder if she ever understood. She trusted me, I loved her. Goodbye for now, my precious girl.

As of this date I have never been able to retrieve her cremated remains from the vet. I paid the bill but I haven't been able to receive the remains. It is yet far too painful.

Thursday, December 16, 2010

White Today....

And so.. today we woke up to white stuff -- wasn't flour or confectioners sugar either. Soon it had turned to sleet and then freezing rain. Now it looks like dirty ice soup. Not much movement around as school systems quckly changed status from being delayed two hours to why don't you guys just stay home today and come back on another day. So today there are lots of "jerk parents." You know who I mean -- the ones whose children evoke the jerk response -- they push and push until you turn into a jerk. Kids are unpredictable -- you never know how far up the wall they will drive you! In other homes around town are teenagers whose parents have figured out the best way to keep them off the roads today --let the air totally out of the tires and hide the pump. So for all of the Moms of school age kids today we need to throw a life preserver.
There are things you can do to survive -- like be sure to feed your family from the three basic food groups --canned, frozen, and take-out. Always buy products that say tastes homemade.
And don't forget to be yourself -- so that no one can ever tell you that you are doing it wrong.
Going off to spend my day with two canines. Sorry that yesterday was the deadline for all complaints.

Monday, December 13, 2010

Weather Whether or Not....

I am a winter grump! I sometimes post things about my disgruntled feelings and I suppose folks get tired of hearing me. But winter makes me so miserable. Currently the weather is so very cold and winter has not officially started. My skin dries out and cracks around my fingers and on my feet. Sometimes the cracked spots bleed and sometimes my fingers and joints hurt and are sore.
So, it sounds like I dislike the way winter makes me feel physically and emotionally.

Old people do not fare well in the cold of winter because their body systems are often compromised even before having to endure cold temperatures. Young people often do not fare well in cold temperatures because developmentally their little bodies aren't prepared to cope. We must wrap and bundle them up really tight or I should say try to. As a former school marm I can tell you it was almost like fighting to get them to wrap up to leave the school building to either play or go home. Students would leave coats, hats and gloves strewn all over rather than wear them. They eventually wound up in the "Lost and Found." Occasionally as you passed through the area you would find a parent anxiously looking to find the lost clothing of their child.

As I write this I have a little black schnauzer girl curled up beside me sound asleep. Today has been miserably cold but she didn't seem to know it. She and her sister have been in and out the door over and over to take care of business and play in the yard for as long as I would allow. I have tried to be careful that they did not stay out very long. They always have on their own little furry coats but I felt they weren't sufficient for very long.

I am tired of hearing about the buckle in the jet stream. One reporter on CBS forecasted tonight that it looks like this weather pattern with Mr. Jet Stream out of whack will probably last through the end of the year. Who knows what then?? Could be MOS!

Monday, December 6, 2010

Can You Believe??

Can you believe ......in Santa Claus? Can you believe that December is starting off kind of like I remember December of last year --really cold? I keep hearing about La Nino and El Nino and everybody Nino. (Supposedly the Ninos cause all of this weather phenomenon.) I just wish the Nino Family would go away and quit bothering us. Is that really too much to ask?
I would just like a truly typical southern winter. I think I would really enjoy that. How about you?

Thursday, December 2, 2010

Being Cold....

I detest cold weather. I can not think of one redeeming feature of cold weather. Now, I guess I should define cold weather. Cold weather, to me, is anything below fifty degrees, but more specifically anything below forty degrees is really cold. If it is below thirty degrees it is down right brutal in my mind. Lest you get any bright ideas about my opinion(s) I have lived in and through some truly cold stuff.

I have this thing called light affective disorder or whatever. It simply means that I am really sensitive to the loss of light during the months of the year when daylight hours are shorter. So.. I have no love for the months of November and December due to the number of really short days and long hours of dark. I could never live at the poles or even in Palin's beloved Alaska. She can have it---and see Russia all day!!!

Each year I live for the days of January when the days start to lengthen by one minute a day. Wait, don't get me wrong, I didn't say I loved January. I was just saying that I appreciated the fact that the days begin to lengthen out each day in January. Gradually over the months until the latter part of June our days get longer. In my tiny mind, cold weather == short days and short days == cold weather.

Monday, November 29, 2010

Singing n' Sanging

So, where is it written that a church congregation MUST sing every song in the hymnal at least once a year or whichever?? Just wondered if anyone knew the answer. I can not think of a single reason why it should be a requirement for exaltation. Now, honestly, can you??

On many Sundays, almost most Sundays of late, I feel like I am giving a concert or that I am accompanying the chorister in singing a solo that neither of us chose or prepared as a solo.
As you may have guessed, songs that are being chosen as congregational hymns are not familiar or known by the congregation. Poor folks, especially those who do not read music, trying to sing along and be cooperative. Sort of like trying to ride a bike with one tire flat!

Oh well, when I get to be king of the world things really will be different!!

Saturday, November 27, 2010

Teaching From the Heart....

For whatever reason the time that has lapsed since I last worked in my chosen profession has brought about a tremendous loss for me in terms of good memories of a career in which I invested heavily of my time and dedication for lots of years. I truly can not say I have wasted any time missing getting up early and going off to school each day. But my confidence in a job well done was dealt a sour end. I will not dwell further on that.

However, today for several hours I have spent time shredding and destroying written cards and communication from years past from students, family, and friends. Opening each of these cards, reading them, and shredding them was somewhat therapeutic for me. Among the cards I read were thank you notes from the parents of students for teaching and caring about their students (children), notes from students full of praise and love, notes from fellow teachers and teachers I mentored, and many, many thank you notes from principals for whom I worked for the hours spent performing many tasks and leadership roles that needed to be done.

I haven't even come close to getting through one third of this box but it certainly has rejuvenated my belief in myself and the job I performed on behalf of students for many, many years. It certainly renews my faith in myself and my abilities as an educator.

After some pondering I have concluded that if teaching is really what you want to do when you aim for and gain a college degree in education your feelings of fulfillment will most often be met when teaching students in a classroom. What I am trying to say is that no position in the field of education is more fulfilling that the sparkle in the eye of a student who finally "gets it" when trying to learn a new concept. One can lead and teach teachers, prepare materials, and do research for educators, do staff development and train educators, perform many leadership activities, but the true teacher teaches. It is the heart of the issue.

Thursday, November 25, 2010

Thanksgiving Day OR......

What are you doing today to give thanks for all of your blessings? Are you choking down your turkey so that you can hit the streets and shop until you drop for the next big holiday? Is that any way for us to celebrate a "day of thanksgiving?"

I can't imagine that our forefathers really intended shopping on that day when Thanks was first given. I don't know about the validity of that story of Squanto and the Pilgrims but certainly those early settlers gave thanks at some point. What are we allowing to happen by participating? Or are we participating?
I vote for family time, giving thanks, relaxing and just enjoying the day with those we love the mostest!! Oh yes, I forgot the turkey!

Saturday, November 20, 2010

So You Think You Are Boss....

What a difference ten days makes in a house with one less schnauzer! I wouldn't say there is a word to describe it -- other than different. We now have two schnauzers vowing to be number one.
A young one whose spirit will not be dominated or intimidated. A six year old who puts up with nothing but seems to be cutting the younger one a little slack while she seems to mourn the vacancy left by Sassy.

Sassy had an "easy" personality. It was as if you couldn't shake her ego. She knew who she was and no "upstart" could shake that. She seemed to know she was first in my heart so cut all of the shenanigans you please but when it is over you haven't changed anything. These two (Kami and Piper Kensleigh) are worlds different from my Sassy.

But now there seems to be a constant fight for my attention, to get out the door first, and there is some kind of confusion going on about who takes the first bite when I feed them. I think Kami really knows she isn't the head honcho but she isn't sure sure about the pecking order yet. Her little spirit is right in there vowing for every inch and squinch it can get!!
Watching dog behavior is intriguing. They want to be members of the same pack, they do not easily accept others, they spar with one another (play fighting), but past that it is very hard to figure it all out. I have been a schnauzer Mommy for almost twelve years and I don't have it all straight yet.
Stay tuned.........

Friday, November 19, 2010

Scrooge Season

Yo, tomorrow is this town's Christmas parade and thus the madness begins. It will not end until January 1st, 2011, when everyone's pocket is practically empty or they are deeply in debt or both. There was a time in my life when I, too, looked forward to this time of the year. But I must confess that I have become an old lady Scrooge.

Oh, I enjoy the music and some of the events that come with the season as much as anyone but the cons outweigh the pros for me. That the nations of the world set aside a day to celebrate the birth of the Christ child is quite commendable. The way we celebrate leaves a lot to question.
That the holiday brings families together and that they want to share with one another are both desirable events IF we are able to make the connections back to the Savior and his birth. Too often what is happening to celebrate has not much to do with the true meaning of the holiday.

I sometimes find myself just being glad when it is all over and everything is back to "normal" if there is a normal. Sorry Christmas season lovers but it is what it is.

Thursday, November 18, 2010

Musings on the Daily News

The news this evening is depressing. All about the national debt and the proposed cuts to what they call entitlements. To young people that might not seem shocking or cause for concern. But for older Americans there is cause for alarm. As one becomes "of age" (for some while) you have had no choice but to participate in Medicare unless you are independently wealthy. If you have health insurance it becomes your secondary policy.
Among other suggestions being made to improve the US budget deficit was cutting Social Security and other programs such as Medicaid and Medicare. Most of us know individuals whose only income is the little bit they receive from Social Security. Not only is that "little bit" taxed since the administration of President Clinton but individuals are required to pay for Medicare out of that little bit. Rather than cut benefits of deserving individuals why not look for those who are receiving benefits and who never contributed to SS as well as those who are immigrants to this country and receiving many, many entitlements from Social Security benefits, health care, food stamps, and who knows what else without contribution.
Of course, much of what is proposed may never be enacted but it does give concern when among the first things mentioned when the hatchet men start to work is that which concerns an element of the population less able to help themselves and those who have worked their entire lives for the little bit of return they are receiving during these the sunset years of their lives.

Sunday, November 14, 2010

**Post SASSY...

So today is Sunday as I try to pull myself together. When Ken passed away I learned how to compartmentalize my mind. I think I need to hark back to those practices for a little while as I deal with the raw hurt and missing Sassy. My doctor told me it is OK to compartmentalize so long as you, at some point, pull forth that hurt and deal with it.

Today I am grateful for two little schnauzers, Piper Kensleigh and Kamelot Kamryn. Kami is not quite six months and was acquired as I prepared for the loss of my beloved Sassy. Piper is six years and nine months. I acquired Piper when Sassy was six for a playmate or companion. Sassy had a very, very bad surgery with bladder stones and was quite sick. I felt she needed a daily canine companion and a companion while I was at work. So we got Miss hyper Piper. She has a much different schnauzer personality than sweet Sassy. When Kami gets through this wild puppy stage I suspect she will have a personality much like Sassy. She is a lover right now.

This is the season for giving thanks. Today I am grateful for friends who care. One who sent absolutely gorgeous flowers to me to make me feel better, warm my home atmosphere, know that she cared and to help me feel the love of my Heavenly Father. Another has been my visiting teacher who volunteered to go with me when she realized the time had come for me to send Sassy to Schnauzer Heaven. My family members who understand and offer kind thoughts and condolences. I have many blessings; I am grateful for every single one far too numerous to list.

**It has been several hours since I wrote this post. I have reconsidered the title. It is all wrong.
IT WILL NEVER BE POST SASSY. She will ALWAYS BE WITH ME JUST LIKE KEN,
my mistake.

Friday, November 12, 2010

The Day Following the Day After....

Today marks the second day since my beloved Sassy went to schnauzer heaven. Unfortunately the hurt is not better today. Tears are very close to the surface and the hurt is very raw. My chest / heart even hurt like I remember in the loss of family members. In fact, I have started that doubting process that I customarily do when I have had to make these "hard decisions." I doubt myself and why I let myself make the decision to let her go at the time I did. My mind says to me, "why didn't you wait a little longer for a miracle?" I make it so difficult for myself to cope. My doctor says it is a personality flaw.
I remember the little things she did over the last few days that showed she still had a desire to live as she did typical schnauzer things like bark when the other girls barked and try to smell everything along the ground when I carried her out to the yard.
My Sassy never got a body odor like some doggies do when they get too warm or have not been bathed for several days. She always smelled good when I buried my face in her fur.

I love my Piper schnauzer and my new puppy, Kami. I wonder if I can EVER love them like I loved my Sassy. Can I? Will I?

Thursday, November 11, 2010

The Day After ......

Today begins the first day of my life in eleven years, eleven months and fourteen days without my precious Sassy schnauzer. When I think of her the tears roll. I am still in shock. She was laying on my lap yesterday as her vet administered the drug that stopped her magnanimous heart. I was hit with the thought, "whatever have I done?" I have allowed my best friend in the canine world to be put to sleep never to wake again in this life. I uttered these very words, "whatever have I done?" and started bawling. The doctor and my friend assured me that I had relieved her of her pain and set her spirit free of the cancer-riddled body. Why does it hurt so badly if I have done what was best for my beloved dog? And why do I keep having to make these painful decisions for those I love so dearly? The vet left the room and told me she would check back in a while and for me to hold her for as long as I wanted. And I did, I gave her up as her little body started to cool. She actually never moved when injected with the heart stopping drug. I could not help but wonder if she had gone before the drug was administered. By the time the vet could get the stethoscope to her heart it had stopped.

I have tried to prepare myself for this day. On Labor Day weekend I traveled to Lebanon, Tennessee, and got another schnauzer puppy as a companion for my Piper schnauzer. I have felt for some time that doggies need a companion friend especially when I was working and not home during a lot of the day. A puppy can be extremely distracting and I hoped this would help as I faced the inevitable. At the moment my puppy, Kami, has been sitting next to me and kissing my face as I cry. This is tough, folks, really tough.

When I look at her pictures I think that I can't believe that she is really gone. It is like she should be here somewhere with me. Oh, precious Sassy, I miss you so.

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

Rest in Peace, My Precious Girl

Today ranks up there with the saddest days of my life. I have written about and dreaded this day for about seven months. That was when I was told that my older schnauzer girl had a brachial plexus tumor under her right foreleg and further that it had invaded the nervous system. Any treatment done would not cure the cancer so I chose not to treat it but rather to treat my precious Sassy with the best of care and love for her remaining days, keeping her pain-free until her suffering was such that she should go to Schnauzer Heaven. Today was that day.

Since the death of my husband twelve years ago I have not cried. Since learning of the impending loss of this doggie girl I have cried a few buckets full. I have felt so extremely helpless. It was another of those times when I couldn't fix it. When Ken was sick I tried my best to find what was wrong with him. Neither I nor the doctors could fix it. By the time the doctors figured out the cause they realized what he had could not be cured. Such was the case again.
When Sassy was sick she always looked to me for comfort and help. This time I could comfort but was not very good at helping. She remained totally devoted and attached to me until the end and that is one of the reasons my heart is broken as I type these words. She was so very stoic through the very end.
Rest in Peace my wonderful, wonderful girl. I will always love you more than I can say or measure. You were like the daughter I never had. You made my life worth living after the loss of Ken. Each and every morning I had a reason to get up --- you needed me. And I needed you so.

Saturday, November 6, 2010

Deception.... as I see it...

I reflect on happenings in the world of politics. But first let me set the record straight about where I stand on politics. I do not believe that I could categorize myself into a political party as they exist today. I voted this week and split my ticket the whole way voting for those who I felt were best qualified out of the choices given.
There have been several issues in the world of politics that have made my type A negative blood boil recently. The first has been the treatment of a certain chemistry specialist, with the SBI who has been doing their specialty work in blood spatter and pathology, I think for lack of a better official title.
The other issue has been the deceptive practices of right-wing groups in hiring college students to prowl the streets outside of Congress during an election year to goad, mock, and tempt legislators in such a manner continuously until they get negative reactions from the congressmen, film those interactions, and use them in a derogatory and deceptive manner to trick the public into believing the congressmen are BAD! Then using those clips on public media to make it seem that they(the students) were attacked on the street by our representatives out of the clear blue while they ( the college students) were totally innocent. The entire incident in one case was framed. For a moment it was difficult to find who knew these student(s) and had sponsored their activities. ($, I mean.) Obviously, they knew it was a set-up but only after it was presented to the public for the gullible to buy right in to the intent of the perpetrators. To me, that is true deception, a concept I taught to my fifth graders for years about advertising techniques.

Then we have the "crucifixion" of Chemist B by the local rag sheet. I keep waiting for some soul to defend this man. Looks like I may keep waiting a while. As I understand this issue, in his defense, he was doing what he had been given instructions to do from his superiors. Whatever the issue with the released convicted prisoner, B did as instructed. His training in blood chemistry came from those same FBI trainers who were offering criticism. No one has his back in this issue. His fearless leader tried to defend him and she was promptly moved by the governor to another department of government and he was left to take "the medicine." I do not know about his so-called "conflicting testimony" to which reference has been made ( in the press) but I suspect it all falls into the same category. B, as I know him, is an honest man as are his parents who trained and raised him. The deception in this issue does not lie with B.
When the press decides to train-wreck a career they assume they know all of the facts and have all of the figures. This time I do not buy in.

Doggie Tails er Tales.....

Why do I write this blog....I dunno...perhaps it is for documentation. At least that was my training for all of a professional career.
For some weeks now a portion of my time has been consumed with caring for a houseful of canines --well, maybe not a houseful, but three. One is very sick preparing to cross over, one is a six year old sweetie who seems to understand something isn't right, and one is a five month old puppy who just thinks everything is such fun. I spend a lot of time coaxing my sick one that she really does want to eat stuff that is good for her and to take her meds. For my six year old, I spend time getting her meds for Fall allergies in her, keeping her fed and feeling wanted and not left out. For my five month old puppy I spend lots of time "trying" to potty train (she wears diapers inside), playing with her and trying my best not to step on her as she follows me around. All three want to be with me every where I go but my precious Sassy just stays in the place I put her for comfort with her eyes following me.
Now why would an old woman like me enjoy this kind of life. Wish I knew the answer but I am not sure I do. They are all three precious to me. They keep me from being lonely. They make life interesting and I just love observing their behaviors. Is that reason enough??
I worry about doing the right thing for my Sassy who has fallen victim to the big C. A cancerous tumor in the brachial plexus for which there is no cure and has spread to the nervous system. Will I know when is the right time to end her suffering and let her go? Will I know when it is best for her and she is ready? I worry about this. Not an easy choice.

Sunday, October 31, 2010

Do you believe.......

Let's just get straight to the question that plagues me. Everyone seems to have a different idea. Do dogs have souls and will there be dogs in heaven? Three things bring this to the forefront of my mind again today -- Halloween of all days!!! First, CBS This Morning has done a spot today on Crossing Over and whether there is an afterlife. Secondly, in Thursday's N&O the God Squad editorialist Marc Gellman wrote a response to an inquiry, "Where do your pets go after death?"
Thirdly, the impending passing of a beloved pet (schnauzer) of my very own.
Katie Couric interviewed several guests and authors about passing over, tales of passing over, why humans choose to believe this, and explanations for these experiences "they" claim to have. (I could not help but wonder as she asked several probing questions what she really believes knowing that she has lost both a husband and a sister in recent years to cancer.)
Marc Gellman writes in his column that he has answered this question several times in the past.
I quote," The official line of the major faiths is that animals don't go to heaven because they don't have souls." Says he, " Like us, animals are created by God, but unlike us they were not created in the image of God and therefore do not have souls." He goes on to say, "this does not mean that they can be abused, though, and it doesn't mean they're incapable of love and loyalty."
Feel free to search for his column and read it if it will assist your ponderings. Doesn't help me at all!
However, he does end his response with his opinion, "I believe we won't be separated forever from those we love, including our pets." Whoa, what???? What did you just say? AND what do you really believe??

Are we all just assuming, hoping, having faith that mercy will be shown to our desires to have those we love with us? Where is the proof that animals have a life with us after death?

Well, what is your opinion? I would certainly like to hear from those who read my blog.

Saturday, October 30, 2010

If I.....

Have you ever wondered how your life and / or choices in life would have been different had you been born or come forth in a different generation? I suspect that many of us may have given some thought to that as it pertains to generations who lived before us as in the pioneers who settled this great country. But..... I am ancient in age now and have given some thought recently as to how my choices particularly might have been very different if I had been born perhaps two generations later. As I ponder this idea I am sure my thinking would probably change again if I "charted" my thoughts and dismantled all of the scaffolding or "underpinnings" of my life as it has existed and just back to the plain bare bones and give some thought to what influenced the choices I have made. I think I will not spend much more time on this idea, it is way too deep for such a shallow mind.

Thursday, October 28, 2010

Fickle Fall...or is it???

The weather during the summer was strange...no not strange but HOT! Meaning many ninety degree days which continued after the official solstice for fall. Then we had the teasers.... some cooler days followed by quite warm again. As October draws to a close we still have not had the first frost but the weather media promises it could just be on the horizon. Whatever it is we will take it all in stride and wonder whether this "strange weather" has been a predictor of things to come as winter visits our part of the hemisphere. I HATE winter!!!
I have come to appreciate Fall but I think I just talked myself into it. I don't know for sure whether it is true affection or pretend! Pretend, I think. OOOOHHHH, now who is fickle, me or fall???

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

The Raggedy Man

This is another of James Whitcomb Riley's better known poems. Written again in the Hoosier dialect the poem is much more entertaining than cerebral. Raggedy Ann and Andy dolls are said to have been a by-product of Riley's poetry -- this particular poem and Little Orphant Annie.
The Raggedy Man by James Whitcomb Riley
O the Raggedy Man! He works fer Pa;
An' he's the goodest man ever you saw!
He comes to our house every day,
An' waters the horses, an' feeds 'em hay;
An' he opens the shed -- an' we all ist laugh
When he drives out our little old wobble-ly calf;
An' nen -- ef our hired girl says he can --
He milks the cow fer 'Lizabuth Ann. --
Ain't he a' awful good Raggedy Man?
Raggedy! Raggedy! Raggedy Man!


W'y, The Raggedy Man -- he's ist so good,
He splits the kindlin' an' chops the wood;
An' nen he spades in our garden, too,
An' does most things 'at boys can't do. --
He clumbed clean up in our big tree
An' shooked a' apple down fer me --
An' 'nother 'n', too, fer 'Lizabuth Ann --
An' 'nother 'n', too, fer The Raggedy Man. --
Ain't he a' awful kind Raggedy Man?
Raggedy! Raggedy! Raggedy Man!


An' The Raggedy Man one time say he
Pick' roast' rambos from a' orchurd-tree,
An' et 'em -- all ist roast' an' hot! --
An' it's so, too! -- 'cause a corn-crib got
Afire one time an' all burn' down
On "The Smoot Farm," 'bout four mile from town --
On "The Smoot Farm"! Yes -- an' the hired han'
'At worked there nen 'uz The Raggedy Man! --
Ain't he the beatin'est Raggedy Man?
Raggedy! Raggedy! Raggedy Man!


The Raggedy Man's so good an' kind
He'll be our "horsey," an' "haw" an' mind
Ever'thing 'at you make him do --
An' won't run off -- 'less you want him to!
I drived him wunst way down our lane
An' he got skeered, when it 'menced to rain,
An' ist rared up an' squealed and run
Purt' nigh away! -- an' it's all in fun!
Nen he skeered ag'in at a' old tin can ...
Whoa! y' old runaway Raggedy Man!
Raggedy! Raggedy! Raggedy Man!


An' The Raggedy Man, he knows most rhymes,
An' tells 'em, ef I be good, sometimes:
Knows 'bout Giunts, an' Griffuns, an' Elves,
An' the Squidgicum-Squees 'at swallers the'rselves:
An', wite by the pump in our pasture-lot,
He showed me the hole 'at the Wunks is got,
'At lives 'way deep in the ground, an' can
Turn into me, er 'Lizabuth Ann!
Er Ma, er Pa, er The Raggedy Man!
Ain't he a funny old Raggedy Man?
Raggedy! Raggedy! Raggedy Man!


An' wunst, when The Raggedy Man come late,
An' pigs ist root' thue the garden-gate,
He 'tend like the pigs 'uz bears an' said,
"Old Bear-shooter'll shoot 'em dead!"
An' race' an' chase' 'em, an' they'd ist run
When he pint his hoe at 'em like it's a gun
An' go "Bang! -- Bang!" nen 'tend he stan'
An' load up his gun ag'in! Raggedy Man!
He's an old Bear-shooter Raggedy Man!
Raggedy! Raggedy! Raggedy Man!


An' sometimes The Raggedy Man lets on
We're little prince-children, an' old King's gone
To git more money, an' lef' us there --
And Robbers is ist thick ever'where;
An' nen -- ef we all won't cry, fer shore --
The Raggedy Man he'll come and "'splore
The Castul-halls," an' steal the "gold" --
An' steal us, too, an' grab an' hold
An' pack us off to his old "Cave"! -- An'
Haymow's the "cave" o' The Raggedy Man! --
Raggedy! Raggedy! Raggedy Man!


The Raggedy Man -- one time, when he
Wuz makin' a little bow-'n'-orry fer me,
Says "When you're big like your Pa is,
Air you go' to keep a fine store like his --
An' be a rich merchunt -- an' wear fine clothes? --
Er what air you go' to be, goodness knows?"
An' nen he laughed at 'Lizabuth Ann,
An' I says "'M go' to be a Raggedy Man! --
I'm ist go' to be a nice Raggedy Man!"
Raggedy! Raggedy! Raggedy Man!

Birfdays........

Birfdays are the worst! So are birthdays! When you get to be ancient (like me) who cares whether you have a birthday? Note it, and just let it pass. Don't make a big deal of it.
Now I know that is not the conventional attitude but I wouldn't say that I am very conventional.
Believe it or not, my preference in life would be just to slide on by, do my part, contribute what I can and go quietly into the night. Everyone doesn't have to have a stage. Who was that old geezer who said life is a stage?? Well, he got it all wrong as far as I am concerned.
My preference is NO SHOW. If you want a show go to the movies, Memorial Auditorium, or the RBC Center.
Birthdays make me uncomfortable and I would rather ignore them than celebrate. So for today I am ignoring it all. At our house we are running an ordinary day!

Saturday, October 23, 2010

New blood.....

We have this new "person"/ er thing living in our house now. We named her Kamelot and we call her Kami. However, I have determined that based on her behavior we made a really big mistake. Her name should have been Streak or Lightening. She is everywhere all at once and into everything all at the same time!! There is nothing that exists that is not a toy to her! She is like the Energizer bunny and never winds down. My sick schnauzer just looks at her like what is that thing and how did she get here. The six year old, Piper, tried trying to tame her as they have slowly torn up the house. All to no avail, thus Piper has given up. I think we are going to leave the house to her next week and just move out!!

Friday, October 15, 2010

Lessons of Life

Some folks lead a simple uncomplicated life never having to face unpredictable challenges. We are born completely innocent of the experiences this life can bring. More often than not our experiences are a product of our choices. These experiences color our thinking, our personalities, our mood, and even further choices that we make. I think my childhood was one of the most protective a child could have. I was the only child in my family for six years. My parents provided the age appropriate developmental experiences I needed but my world was certainly far from what one would call worldly. I never could have fathomed what the future held for me as an adult. My experience(s) with Creutzfeldt-Jakob Disease ranks right up at the top of the cruel. Of course, I know not what the future holds as none of us do. But when a loved one dies of this disease you never ever really get far beyond the experiences you shared. They may dull with time but they never really go away.

What is Creutzfeldt-Jakob Disease?
Creutzfeldt-Jakob disease (CJD) is a rare, degenerative, invariably fatal brain disorder. It affects about one person in every one million people per year worldwide; in the United States there are about 200 cases per year. CJD usually appears in later life and runs a rapid course. Typically, onset of symptoms occurs about age 60, and about 90 percent of individuals die within 1 year. In the early stages of disease, people may have failing memory, behavioral changes, lack of coordination and visual disturbances. As the illness progresses, mental deterioration becomes pronounced and involuntary movements, blindness, weakness of extremities, and coma may occur.

What are the Symptoms of the Disease?
CJD is characterized by rapidly progressive dementia. Initially, individuals experience problems with muscular coordination; personality changes, including impaired memory, judgment, and thinking; and impaired vision. People with the disease also may experience insomnia, depression, or unusual sensations. CJD does not cause a fever or other flu-like symptoms. As the illness progresses, mental impairment becomes severe. Individuals often develop involuntary muscle jerks called myoclonus, and they may go blind. They eventually lose the ability to move and speak and enter a coma. Pneumonia and other infections often occur in these individuals and can lead to death.

Scientists are trying to learn what causes variations in the symptoms and course of the disease.
Some symptoms of CJD can be similar to symptoms of other progressive neurological disorders, such as Alzheimer’s or Huntington’s disease. However, CJD causes unique changes in brain tissue which can be seen at autopsy. It also tends to cause more rapid deterioration of a person’s abilities than Alzheimer’s disease or most other types of dementia.

What Causes Creutzfeldt-Jakob Disease?
Some researchers believe an unusual "slow virus" or another organism causes CJD. However, they have never been able to isolate a virus or other organism in people with the disease. Furthermore, the agent that causes CJD has several characteristics that are unusual for known organisms such as viruses and bacteria. It is difficult to kill, it does not appear to contain any genetic information in the form of nucleic acids (DNA or RNA), and it usually has a long incubation period before symptoms appear. In some cases, the incubation period may be as long as 50 years. The leading scientific theory at this time maintains that CJD and the other TSEs are caused by a type of protein called a prion.

My husband was a microbiologist by profession. His specialty for the last twenty-five years of his career was mycology. His attending doctors believe he probably contracted this disease through his work in some way -- most likely in what was air-borne. His variation of this disease presented with many of the classic symptoms. So extremely frustrating as I and the doctors tried to help him without success. So tough when nothing works. Eventually he did develop pneumonia and went into a coma. An otherwise healthy strong body taken down by a rare, rare disease.

I Will Forgive


Do you or any of those you love find it difficult to forgive and forget when feeling slighted or abused by others? Unfortunately this happens to many of us as we plod our way along through this earthly life. During my sojourn there have been quite a few times that I have been given reason to hold grudges and feel resentful toward others. And I must confess I have done my share of feeling abused. I know how true the words of this message of The Spoken Word are. I also know how difficult it can be to not remember who inflicted those feelings. More over I know that the real abuse is what we are doing to ourselves when we allow these feelings to fester

"Letting Go"
October 10, 2010 Broadcast #4230


It's been said that "harboring resentment is like taking poison and then waiting for the other person to die." Keeping a mental list of those who have offended or hurt us serves no good purpose. When we allow ourselves to be resentful, we only harm ourselves.

A middle-aged man learned this much too late in life. In his young adulthood, someone close to him had hurt him deeply. He carried the hurt, which festered into a grudge, for several decades. He spent years accumulating his own sort of "enemies list," remembering others who he believed had done him wrong--most of them unknowingly or at least unintentionally. It wasn't until much later, his heart now softened by age and more of life's ups and downs, that he realized how much he had harmed himself with his own grudges. The poison of resentment held him back from experiencing some of life's joys.

Very often the things that divide people--words spoken in haste, criticisms, accusations, or false assumptions--can lead to bitterness and animosity. And once divided, the people may never come together again.

The solution, of course, is to let the bad feelings go. We all know it intuitively: learning to let go of resentments, whether big or little, can open our heart to love and peace, to rewarding and lasting relationships. Refusing to hold on to hurt feelings leaves more energy for building bonds with those we love. Rejecting the inclination to itemize hurts, slights, and offenses allows for more joy in living.

Consider the lives disrupted, the peace disturbed, the happiness destroyed by resentment. Now might be a good time to clear the heart of past hurts, to drop the enemies list, to let it go.





Tuesday, October 12, 2010

My Beloved Sassy

My Sassy schnauzer and I have had almost twelve wonderful years together. She came into my life for Christmas of 1998 after Ken had died in May of 1998. Sassy was born in Tennessee on June 15, 1998. My brother-in-law, Clyde, got her for me for Christmas and loved her from the time he picked her up at the airport. She loved him and her Aunt Kathy. Clyde passed away on January 4th of this year.
During our visit to her doctor today the vet confirmed what I have dreaded to hear. She estimates about six weeks at a maximum -- that is the time I have left with a dog who saw me through some the absolute worst days of my life. She has the sweetest personality of any schnauzer I have ever seen. She is what I call laid back and easy. She puts up with most dogs but growls at our new family member, Cami. The vet thinks it is in protection of her own pain.
But as sweet as Cami is she is all puppy and sometimes a pest!
My job for the next few weeks and the days I have left with my Beloved Sassy is to love her all I can and keep her pain free.

Monday, October 11, 2010

We Got a Bad Case of the Uglies.......

Holy Cow! Will wonders never cease! I sat down for a minute to gaze through The News and Observer today (10/11/10) only to happen upon this story in the Life section displaying these shoes! Ahem, if that is what you can call them. Talking about weird -- the headline on the display says, "Form and function." Form and function, who are they kidding???? I am not sure about their function but their form brings only one word to mind ----UUGGGGLEEEEEE!! As to function I am not sure what one could do when these "things" were applied to the foot!! Scare it to death or pretend it is already Halloween! That is about all I can conjure up!
Now to add insult to injury their prices vary from $695.00 to at Saks FIfth Avenue to $49.99 at Payless Yes, I sure would be paying less, er, I mean they would have to pay me to take them to the dump. Check 'em out folks, I am sure they must match your latest newest outfit!

Vai Sikahema

This is a reproduced portion of a story being carried in the Deseret News, Salt Lake City of the inspirational experiences of Vai Sikahema. To read all of the story it can be found on the Deseret News site. Tongan immigrant to BYU and NFL football star who has become a media celebrity in Philadelphia. The final installment looks at Sikahema's commitment to his faith and an inspirational journey back to Tonga.

It should have been a thrilling moment. In 1996, just two years after he began his full-time broadcasting career, Vai Sikahema was invited to a meeting and offered a promotion to sports director and sports anchor. This meant he would anchor the sports news at 6 and 11 on weekday nights and cover the Philadelphia Eagles on Sunday. It was a dream job, but Sikahema's elation was tempered by one problem: He had just been called to serve as a bishop in his Mormon ward.

How could he reward his bosses' generous offer by telling them he had more compelling duties that would preclude him from meeting all the demands of his new job? How could he explain that he needed to be at church on Sundays, instead of traveling with the Eagles? How could he explain that he needed to be at his church on weeknights, as well, instead of the studio?

Sikahema sought inspiration in the temple of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints and found it.

"I could see in my mind's eye exactly what I was supposed to do and what I was supposed to say to my bosses," he says. He immediately wrote these thoughts on the back of a business card, and two days later, he met again with station manager Pat Wallace and news director Steve Doer.

"There's something you should know," he began. "I don't know if this will make a difference in my promotion, but there might be some conflicts in my personal life."

He told them about his calling as a bishop and that it would require him to perform church duties on weeknights between the 6 o'clock news and 11 o'clock news and all day Sunday. Sikahema was surprised by what happened next.

"What can we do to help you?" Wallace asked.

Overcome with emotion, Sikahema told them how he felt about his church. He concluded by saying, "This is a call of God, and I will move heaven and earth to make certain that my professional duties will not be shortchanged if you allow me to fulfill my obligation."

Wallace generously offered to hire a part-time employee to research and write scripts for Sikahema and another reporter to cover Eagles road games on Sundays.

"You go fulfill your obligations to your church and to your faith," he said, with this caveat: that he arrive at the studio a half-hour before his two nightly newscasts.

Sunday, October 10, 2010

Fears When Losing a Pet

For some while now I have felt my Sassy's health is getting worse. (She was diagnosed in May with and incurable cancerous tumor which started in the brachial plexus. I opted not to treat it with chemo and radiation but to keep her as happy and comfortable as I could for her remaining days.) Although she still shows an interest in barking when the other dogs find something "that needs to be barked at." Today her resting breathing is more rapid and she moans every time I pick her up to bring her up the steps or take her down. Some time she will negotiate the deck steps but more often these days she will bark for me to come and help her. I have tried to be vigilant about her pain medication because I feel she is in more pain as time goes along. It is so very sad that she cannot tell me when she hurts more. I don't want her to be alone when she passes away to doggie heaven so I try to watch her carefully. I have never had my dogs sleep with me but as this progresses it may be necessary for me to keep up with her suffering. She still eats pretty well. Tonight she ate all of her chicken and the little bit of kibble I gave her. Her vet told me to be certain she gets lots of protein without fat. So she has been getting chicken canned in water for about a year. I will do all I can to make her as comfortable as I can every day that I am privileged to have her with me. I kiss on her all of the time to let her know she is loved.

Saturday, October 9, 2010

Just Another Fall Day!

One of those beautiful Fall Saturdays. Reminiscent of my years with Ken. October-- a month to get the grass ready for a winter and get in the plantings of fall and winter flowers you would like to enjoy. A good time to clean up the garden spot if you have one. A wonderful day for all of the football games that monopolize television today. Alabama has been a powerhouse thus far this season but has been defeated by South Carolina and Steve Spurrier. Losing will be hard for them and I am certain many people will call it a fluke. However, I had a dear friend to tell me this morning that he thought Steve Spurrier's team would beat Bama today!

In our house today the Mama (me) is fighting with a head cold, sinus, and allergy problem. Not too fun to be allergic to grass when it seeds out. Other than that the doggie girls have been pesty -- both to me and each other. Cami got through the fence and ran off for a minute -- even though I had reinforced the wrought iron fence with a mesh. Some how she managed to get up over 18 inches of mesh and through the picket. It will be a relief when she is too big to slide through.
Sassy doesn't feel very good and is ill with Cami. Piper Kensleigh plays with Cami but feels left out by the attention Cami gets because she is a puppy and a pest!

Wednesday, October 6, 2010

Little Orphant Annie by JW Riley


OCTOBER it is -- the month of Halloween. So why not enjoy another of my favorites from James Whitcomb Riley. Again written with less than perfect grammar and in the Hoosier dialect just right to create the mental images to assist in enjoying his poetry. Gee, I think it would be a great fit to enjoy in a Family Home Evening with your kids! Here we go.....



LITTLE ORPHAN ANNIEbyJames Whitcomb Riley
LITTLE Orphant Annie's come to our house to stay,
An' wash the cups an' saucers up, an' brush the crumbs away,
An' shoo the chickens off the porch, an' dust the hearth an' sweep,
An' make the fire, an' bake the bread, an' earn her board an' keep:
An' all us other children, when the supper things is done,
We set around the kitchen fire an' has the mostest fun
A-list'nin' to the witch tales 'at Annie tells about,
An' the Gobble-uns 'at gits you
Ef you
Don't
Watch
Out!

Onc't they was a little boy wouldn't say his pray'rs...
An' when he went to bed 'at night, away up-stairs,
His mammy heerd him holler, an' his daddy heerd him bawl,
An' when they turn't the kivvers down, he wasn't there at all!
An' they seeked him in the rafter-room, an' cubby-hole an' press.
An' seeked him up the chimbly-flue, and every wheres, I guess,
But all they ever found was thist his pants an' roundabout!
An' the Gobble-uns'll git you
Ef you
Don't
Watch
Out!

An' one time a little girl 'ud allus laugh an' grin,
An' make fun of ever' one an' all her blood an' kin,
An' onc't when they was "company", an' ol' folks was there,
She mocked 'em an' shocked 'em, an' said she didn't care!
An' thist as she kicked her heels, an' turn't to run an' hide,
They was two great big Black Things a-standin' by her side,
An" they snatched her through the ceilin' 'fore she knowed what she's about!
An' the Gobble-uns'll git you
Efyou
Don't
Watch
Out!

An' Little Orphant Annie says, when the blaze is blue,
An' the lampwick splutters, an' the wind goes woo-oo!
An' you hear the crickets quit, an' the moon is gray,
An' the lightnin'-bugs in dew is all squenched away...
You better mind yer parents, and yer teachers fond and dear,
An' churish them 'at loves you, an' dry the orphant's tear,
An' he'p the pore and needy ones 'at clusters all about,
Er the Gobble-uns'll git you
Ef you
Don't
Watch
Out!"

Monday, October 4, 2010

When the Frost is on the Punkin

It is October (or rather Octember as I used to tell my fifth graders) and it is time to pull out my very favorite poem. I love the homespun story James Whitcomb Riley spins of the events of fall in all of its splendor. Today in the N&O was a spread on why leaves turn colors. These ideas always created a wonderful environment for teaching writing.
But first a little about Riley. His poetry is written with a Hoosier dialect and most often reflects a sentimentality of its own. He had an interesting childhood and his subjects often were visitors that stayed at the home of his parents. His father had a reputation for taking poor and disadvantaged people into their home. Some of his poems are reflective of this. I am thinking of "Little Orphant Annie," and "The Raggedy Man." Riley's biography tells a story of a boy who apparently had learning difiiculties but a talent for writing.



When the Frost is on the Punkin
James Whitcomb Riley

When the frost is on the punkin and the fodder's in the shock,
And you hear the kyouck and gobble of the struttin' turkey-cock,
And the clackin' of the guineys, and the clackin' of the hens,
And the rooster's hallylooyer as he tiptoes on the fence;
O, its the time a feller is a-feelin' at his best,
With the risin' sun to greet him from a night of peaceful rest,
As he leaves the house bareheaded, and goes out to feed the stock,
When the frost is on the punkin and the fodder's in the shock.

They's something kindo' harty-like about the atmusfere
When the heat of summer's over and coolin' fall is here--
Of course we miss the flowers, and the blossoms on the trees,
And the mumble of the hummin'-birds and buzzin' of the bees;
But the air's so appetizin'; and the landscape through the haze
Of a crisp and sunny morning of the airly autumn days
Is a pictur' that no painter has the colorin' to mock--
When the frost is on the punkin and the fodder's in the shock.

The husky, rusty russel of the tossels of the corn,
And the raspin' of the tangled leaves as golden as the morn;
The stubble in the furries--kindo' lonesome-like, but still
A-preachin' sermuns to us of the barns they growed to fill;
The strawstack in the medder, and the reaper in the shed;
The hosses in theyr stalls below--the clover overhead!--
O, it sets my hart a-clickin' like the tickin' of a clock,
When the frost is on the punkin and the fodder's in the shock.

Then your apples all is gethered, and the ones a feller keeps
Is poured around the cellar-floor in red and yaller heaps;
And your cider-makin's over and your wimmen-folks is through
With theyr mince and apple-butter, and theyr souse and sausage too!...
I don't know how to tell it---but ef such a thing could be
As the angels wantin' boardin' and they'd call around on me--
I'd want to 'commodate 'em--all the whole-indurin' flock--
When the frost is on the punkin and the fodder's in the shock.

~~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~
It is written that Riley was an alcoholic. I am not sure what impact that had on his writing but I have always had an appreciation for the colour and mental images or pictures that his words created as I read his writings. I especially like his last verse of this poem. Maybe partaking of the spirits helped him wonder about the spirits (angels) in that verse!


Friday, October 1, 2010

Follow Your Dream

I love to listen to the Spoken Word by Lloyd D. Newell that comes weekly with the Tabernacle Choir Broadcast. I am reproducing his message delivered on September 26, 2010 for my own benefit.

Follow Your Dream
Legend has it that at the end of every rainbow lies a pot of gold waiting to be claimed by the fortunate one who finds it. No one seems to have been lucky enough to win such a prize. Rainbows like clouds and shadows, are hard to catch. But some people do follow rainbows--every time they follow their dreams.

The writer George Bernard Shaw said, "You see things. and you say, "Why?" "But I dream things that never were; and I say 'Why not?' "


Who is the follower of dreams? Who looks to the rainbow? The entrepreneur who dreams up a product and spends long days establishing a successful business; the scientist who makes a breakthrough after countless hours of experimenting, the father who works overtime so his children can take music lessons. In every case, the followers of dreams are those who are willing not only to dream but also to work. They know that the dreams they pursue are far more fulfilling than any imaginary pot of gold.

If we would be well led, we should follow someone with a dream. If we would be well taught, we should seek a teacher with real vision. If we would soar to great heights, sail into uncharted waters, or reach the summit of unconquered peaks, we should follow the person who looks at what has never been done and says, "Why not?" Or better still, we can become that person.

We are all dreamers, in our own way. Even if our dream turns out to be as elusive as the mythical pot of gold, it is surely better to have looked to the rainbow and sought the prize than never to have tried. And perhaps our efforts will leave a legacy that will inspire others to follow the dream.

Kin U Spel??

Educational theories and practices seem to come and go. Teachers with experience usually say if you stay in education long enough you will see all theories and so called " best practices" recycled one or more times. I am not sure that some practices are always in the best interest of the education of youngsters although there are people who would gamble all of their earthly goods to make us believers.
Such was the theory and practice some years ago that we should do away with Spelling books, Spelling tests, and anything that emphasized correct spelling. Spelling was to be taught in the context of the learning rather than as a subject in and of itself. So....teachers were pooh-poohed if they held onto the old practices of Spelling lists and tests. Trash talking pooh-pooh, I mean --- bad stuff. Soon it became acceptable to teach Spelling IF it was taught with a skill such as with blends, phonics, and the old rules we all learned.
But some teachers remained convinced lists and tests were the way. Others believed it but were too chicken to let it be known. The result of the debate was that teachers ceased to emphasize spelling skills out of fear of being caught. More and more the emphasis once applied to spelling was allowed to slip. It wasn't difficult to let it go due to testing and assessment pressure being applied in other areas.
When I read entries written by young people today on Facebook and other places I am sharply reminded and acutely aware of how we are reaping the benefit of the lack of instruction of correct Spelling to students today. We have failed them in a very important academic area.
Their spelling is atrocious.

Sunday, September 26, 2010

Recession: Causes-Lack of Recovery

So.....listened to an economist (who worked with one of our former presidents) analyze the Great Recession we are currently enduring. (Frankly can't see a thing great about it! .....but.....

This is what he said whether we agree or not it gives food for thought and makes sense if you have listened to the news over the last 5 years. Both the cause and the lack of recovery are related to the disproportionate amount in salaries being paid to CEO's and the common middle class worker. Thus, in his analysis the total middle class who earn, spend, and thus support the economy have had less and less money to invest and / or spend. Therefore, nothing is moving forward. Even though this fact has been exposed over and over nothing has been done to correct this. One part of the middle class he cited as continually suffering from low wages for the amount of education and work required were school teachers. YOU GO MAN!!! YOU SURE GOT THAT ONE RIGHT!
But teachers are not the only underpaid middle class workers. There are many out there. And the overpaid CEO's were exposed in the beginning of this event as a part of the downfall of many bank and mortgage institutions which incidently the government propped up only to have them pay their CEO's more $$$$.
Now today comes further information uncovered in the census reports -- the gap between the haves and the have-nots has grown such that it is greater than it has ever been.
I have come to the conclusion that some people running this place have hearing problems and real deficits in making connections! How about you?

Saturday, September 25, 2010

Two Delinquents and One Angel

Never in my life did I think I would be raising two delinquents. I remember once when my nephew was barely a toddler my sister and I took him to get his picture made. Of course, the worst of scenes would occur when he threw his little temper tantrum. I remember my sister's comment about how we make such fools of ourselves when they act out in public trying to get the situation back under control. I felt sort of that way when my girls ran off this week.

As you may know, we have a new addition to our canine brood. She has joined our pack and came fully packed with all of the energy and inquisitiveness a puppy could possess. Right away she figured out that she could squeeze through the pickets of the wrought iron fence that lines our back yard. Such was the case late Thursday morning. While trying to retrieve Princess Camelot I lost sight of Piper Kensleigh who had taken full advantage of my antics with the gate and off she trotted as if she was competing in the Kentucky Derby. Fortunately some kind souls were strolling the neighborhood and heard me pleading with these two delinquent canines to come back home with me and helped me lasso the two and reign them in.

And who should be back in the yard but Sassy Jane the Queen of our home. In the yard minding her own schnauzer business and obeying all of the rules. I have a feeling that both of the delinquents will always be exactly that. My Queen will always be as she is although she had her days when she "visited" the neighbors on Wild Orchid Trail. But in those days we did not even have a fence. As I recall she always came back when called, too. Still waiting for the other two to take a lesson from their older "non-delinquent" sister.

Monday, September 20, 2010

All Clogged Up

Gee, sheesh, I have heard several times on the news today that the leaves are coming after me!! They are going to jump in my gutters and clog them up so I need to run out and buy some gutter guards. Of course, then they say you can buy this "stuff" to make gutter guards for a small amount per yard and get it installed for one to five hundred dollars. But......if you buy a gutter guard system and have it installed you are looking at a bill up in the thousands. What else do I need to do? Oh yes, my grass is all clogged up, too. I need to get one of those "thingies" and punch holes all in my lawn and then sew the grass seed. NO, I think that is sow the grass seed -- oh heck, whatever the grass seed! I think that is because the soil in NC is good ole clay - more suitable for making bricks than growing grass!
Fall is expected to "fall" later this week, and daylight saving time will end the first weekend in November. From that point on the hours of daylight will evaporate until by December it is practically dark at 4:40 PM.
As I have gotten older that has really clogged up my thinking! Even the joys of the Yuletide season can't dull the effects of the lack of light for me. I will get slowly "unclogged" as the days start to lengthen in January. By January 31st I will realize they are at least thirty minutes longer. Convinces me that there is a God in Heaven. How about you?

Saturday, September 18, 2010

Values

Some time some where many moons ago a set of parents labored with me their first child (but not their firstborn) to teach me the values that make up my character today. I am certain it was not always easy. Today as an adult I am grateful for their efforts on my behalf. They lived what they taught. I am not sure whether they were always perfect in their effort(s) but the values I admire today I learned in my home.
What I observe in the world around me gives cause for concern . What were other parents doing when my parents were "making me perfect?" What are young parents doing today about teaching values to their children? Have people my age forgotten what they were taught at their parents knee(s)?
Where is respect for others, their lives, and their homes? Where is honor? Where is responsibility for our acts and our part? What about love of God, freedom, and mankind?
I was raised in the south in a time when men opened the door for ladies and allowed them to walk in front when entering a building so as to assist them, and never on the outside when escorting them on the street. I guess I remember those things just because I am old. Because I am old those things no longer show respect, is that it?
Just the thoughts of an old person on an almost fall day.

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

Our New Princess

As of Labor Day weekend we have a new member of our canine family, Princess Camelot. We are calling her Cami. She is as cute as a button and as full of energy as the Energizer Bunny!
Her Mother's name is Guinevere thus the name Camelot. Her owners spelled her Mommy's name some other way but I am too dumb to remember. It has been a while since we had a puppy in our home. They drive me crazy! The last time I did this my brother-in-law took Piper Kensleigh and kept her for about six weeks just so I could regain my sanity. So you might want to keep watching this spot just to know when I finally trip over to the nut house.

Friday, September 3, 2010

Labor Day?????

Why do they call it Labor Day when it is a holiday and folks are off partying and playing because it is the last holiday of summer? Not many people are doing any real labor. That is except for those who work in the service industry. Oh well, maybe that is who Labor Day is supposed to be about -- the folks in the service industry. But shouldn't they have the day off to honor them?
This is getting rather confusing just trying to figure it all out.

Folks surely do look forward to this holiday --- not me. I Hate Winter!! So I have no love for seeing the days get shorter and the weather get colder. I hate short days. By November I am looking forward to the end of January when the days start to lengthen again.
Only one way to look at this thing, I guess -- To Each His Own!

Here We Go Again...

Have you noticed anything strange happening to the green "stuff" outside?? It is no secret that the leaves have sent that message to the plants on which they are growing. What was the message? Oh, the message said, "time to cut off the chlorophyll." "All done for this season."
So when the chlorophyll stops flowing, the leaves turn all colors and fall on the ground. In other words, dear friends, what I am saying is that trees and plants start throwing all of their clothes on the ground. Yes, the time for the season to change draws near and these plants have decided to "make bare." Just to clue you in, the seasons facing us will not be like this the hottest of all summers. Humans will soon start putting on more clothes. Does that give you any clue??
Now, as I have said before in earlier entries to this blog, what is it with trees? They seem to have it all backwards according to the humans on this planet.

Thursday, August 26, 2010

When Appearances Lie

Have you ever given any thought as to how the outward appearances of "things" affect your opinion and thinking about that particular thing? One example that comes quickly to mind might be found in the way children determine whether or not they like a food. If it doesn't look "right" to them they will haven't nothing to do with tasting or sampling the item. I think that might fall into the category of judgments or would it???? I have had students tell me that the food was just NASTY when they didn't like the way it looked. Left me always wondering about the meaning of nasty in their minds.

My thoughts were running along in a completely different direction. I was thinking more about how we as individuals quickly form opinions of people based on their outward appearance. Without consideration of the fact that many people can not control the way they look we make judgments at times. Depending on the age of individuals they may look totally different to us at different stages in their lives. I sometimes happen upon students that I have taught during my career and I do not know who they are because I have not seen them since they were ten or eleven years old and the person is now thirty. My what changes can take place during that time period.

Then again diseases and mental conditions can alter the way people appear physically but not change much in the way they regard themselves because we can not always see what others see when they look at us. In other words, we cannot see ourselves through another's eyes.
How often have you seen an individual, formed an opinion and later learned to know the individual to be a totally different person from your pre-judgment???

The issue that I was pondering that brought all of this to my mind was simply how we are all trapped in a physical body that may not depict who we are as individuals. And further that some of us ( in this earthly life) become trapped in a body that doesn't function properly and does not serve us well.
We should strive each day to be exceptionally kind to one another because of things we do know but more often than not for that which we do not know. And more importantly we need to be kind and patient with ourselves.

CHANGE!

I have lived in Raleigh for many, many years. I was born in a state north of North Carolina but my parents moved to the Old North State when I was in college. When I finished my degree and returned home Wilmington, North Carolina had become home. After a short time in Wilmington Ken and I married and I moved to Raleigh with him where he lived and worked. Since that time I have always been able to go home to Wilmington whenever I needed to get away from the " hub and bub" of this city. In the beginning I could always go home to my parents' home and after they passed away we owned a home there. Time has passed and the body has gotten older. For the twelve years since Ken has been gone I have maintained the extra home. But the time has come to only own and focus on one residence. Taking care of two is a pain when you are alone.
Within the last five months I have marketed the home we own in Wilmington and having found a buyer will soon no longer have a "getaway" there.
Life as I have known it ever since I married and have lived in Raleigh is changing. Change is most often not easy. I am not sure what to expect and whether I will be sad or relieved.

Monday, August 23, 2010

Where The WIld Things Are

Have you read the book or seen the movie, "Where The Wild Things Are"? It will not be long before I can tell you exactly where to find the wild things without having to go very far.
Every year our church congregation rotates church schedules at the beginning of the school year.
For this past school year our schedule ran between 10:50 AM and 1:50 PM. For some reason unknown to most of the congregation we "get to rotate" to the new time of 12:30 PM - 3:30 PM
for the next school year. This schedule is so inconvenient for parents having small children with schedules built around feeding times. Not only that but most adults hate it just as well. To make things even happier the meeting times are flipped so that the meeting known in most religions as the worship service will be the last meeting of the three hour block.
So...... beginning September 5 if you have ever wondered where the wild things were just stop by the church, look in the door and listen! Things are sure to be pretty wild!